The Heart of the Matter

"I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew
I'm learning again
I've been trying to get down
To the heart of the matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about
Forgiveness, Forgiveness
Even if, Even if you don't love me anymore"

Those are the rhythm I've been humming for days now, particularly the 2 last lines :-P. And I was startled when I found that the song was originally by Don Henley. How can a guy sing my heart out so truly. Anyway, I like India Arie's version obviously, but I am certainly smiling on the fact that guys can actually get to sing those words too. Bravo!!

I am so gonna sing this out in my room

Rhythms of Broken Heart

Lately my rhythm has been around John Mayer and John Legend. What's up with these two Johns and good lyrics. Listen to these:

John Mayer's:
I'm Gonna Find Another You:
" It’s really over
You made your stand
You got me crying
As was your plan
But when my loneliness is through
I’m gonna find another you ... "

When You're Dreaming with a Broken Heart:
"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can't hardly breathe ..."

John Legend's
Save Room:
"This just might hurt a little
Love hurts sometimes when you do it right
Don't be afraid of a little bit of pain
Pleasure is on the other side ... "

It just so happen that all of them are about broken heart, it doesn't necessarily mean I'm in that particular state of mind...yea right, drama queen :-P

My rhythm

Music has always been my sweetest lemon. Here are some of my recent favorites:

Fix You -- Cold Play (Chris Martin looks absolutely cooler-than-brad-pitt here)
The Other Side of The World -- KT Tunstall (just my typical taste)
Bend and Break -- Keane (as good as somewhere only we know)
Cinta -- Melly feat. KD (work of a genius of Melly)
Semua Jadi Satu -- Tiga Diva (freshliest song ever recycled)
Sunrise -- Norah Jones (brings me back to my comfortable nest in Odaiba-A303)
Feel Good Inc -- Gorillaz (actually makes you feel good just to follow the rhythm)
Do You Realize -- Flaming Lips (a sleepy-floating sound)
Dealova -- Once (romantic sound)
Eleanor -- Low Millions (no comment)

Fix You--Cold Play*

   D
When you try to the best
        F#m     Bm A
But you don't succeed
  D
When you get what you want
   F#m      Bm A
But not what you need
  D
When you feel so tired
        F#m Bm A
But you can't sleep
D     F#m Bm A
Stuck in reverse

  D
When the tears come
 F#m          Bm A
Streaming down your face
 D
When you lose something
    F#m              Bm A
You can't replace
  D
When you love someone
      F#m            Bm A
But it goes waste
D       F#m Bm A
Could it be worse?

Reff:
G        A          G
Lights will guide you home
     A     G
And ignite your bones
A       D
And I will try fix you

Music: D F#m Bm A

D            F#m Bm A
High up above or down below
     D         F#m       Bm A
When you're too in love to let it go
      D  F#m     Bm A
If you never try you'll never know
         D    F#M Bm A
just what you're worth

...Reff:

Music: D G D A
         Bm G D A [2x]

D         G   D
Tears stream   down on your face
         A
When You lose something
   Bm
You cannot replace
    G          D     A
Tears stream   down on your face and I

D         G         D
Tears stream   down on your face
        A
You promise you I will learn
           Bm
From my mistakes
  G            D   A
Tears stream   down on your face and I

...Reff:

* http://www.thetabworld.com/

I just realize I'm not singing anymore

I don't know why, and I don't know if it's going to be a permanent change, which I would consider as a defect of me. I don't even realize it until this morning in the bathroom. I'm not singing again, not in bathroom, not when I feel happy nor even when I went karaoke-ing a couple of times here, I lost it...really.